Things have been pretty quiet lately. I have had some anxiety issues once again, I spoke to my doctor two weeks in a row by phone, which really helped me, it feels like I’m talking to my best friend when I’m talking to her.

Have been feeling lazy mentally though, I just can’t be bothered to go out, it’s such an effort, just walking past people, forced to say hello, walking past cars with people in them looking at me. I just want to be left alone. I see the weather sometimes and I’m glad when it’s raining heavy and I can’t go out. I wish there was a massive forest where I live where I could go and walk for miles without seeing anyone. Breathing clear fresh air, talking to some trees, hearing some wildlife, but no, it’s just a dream. I have to put up with people, and traffic going past me.