Sometimes I really want to totally lose it and be put into a mental asylum for the rest of my life, just so I can escape having to deal with people and life anymore. Just let me sit in a room on my own and keep me away from life, it’s very tiring having to deal with everything that people throw at you and I just want to give up sometimes and be left alone.


Had to catch the bus today, couldn’t wait to get off. It was alright up towards the back, didn’t smell too badly, but once I had to get off and walked down to the front, there was a smell, disgusting. Was glad to get the fresh air in my lungs.


Legs were aching a bit yesterday evening from walking earlier on, it’s a nice feeling. Felt pretty tired too. Feeling a bit flat, some small thoughts of self harming, nothing too concrete at the moment, other than that, things are not too bad I suppose.