Sometimes I really want to totally lose it and be put into a mental asylum for the rest of my life, just so I can escape having to deal with people and life anymore. Just let me sit in a room on my own and keep me away from life, it’s very tiring having to deal with everything that people throw at you and I just want to give up sometimes and be left alone.
Feel good today, a slight high. Not much else to report. I have met a sweet young lady online, seems like a lovely person, so we’ll see if it develops into a friendship.
Had to catch the bus today, couldn’t wait to get off. It was alright up towards the back, didn’t smell too badly, but once I had to get off and walked down to the front, there was a smell, disgusting. Was glad to get the fresh air in my lungs.
Legs were aching a bit yesterday evening from walking earlier on, it’s a nice feeling. Felt pretty tired too. Feeling a bit flat, some small thoughts of self harming, nothing too concrete at the moment, other than that, things are not too bad I suppose.
One of mine. This must be at least 10 years old. Bit dark, but it adds to it’s character.
Look what I got my hands on yesterday. Limited Edition 20th Anniversary boxset, and what a beautiful piece of merchandise it is, very happy with it.
I went to see Dr. P yesterday, she said the letter from my psychiatrist said about reducing my dosage down a little bit. I said to the Doc I wanted to stay on 10mg, which she said, yeah that’s fine. 10mg suits me, I like it. But she said yeah that’s fine, no problems, so that went good. It was so good to see her, have a little chat, she said I was lovely, which is a compliment I never hear, so that made me feel really good. She’s a wonderful person.