So I decided to self harm today. The depression was starting to get bad. It was about a level 6 and getting higher quickly. I did manage to go out, I flashed a few fake smiles at people, while feeling like shit on the inside. I came home and thought there’s no way i’m feeling like this for another day, so I self harmed, and it felt really good. I feel very relaxed and content now, it was a pretty good cut too, not one of my biggest, but big enough to give me a boost. I can now enjoy going to see the nurse tomorrow for my annual medical check up.
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