I can possibly self harm tomorrow or in the coming days at least. Things have quietened down a bit. I had someone here at the house today doing some work so it was inconvenient again, but it should be quiet the next few days, so hopefully I should get some quiet time to myself to do what I want in peace..


Saw the Doc this morning. She asked me how my moods have been, which I said that they haven’t been too good and that I feel like self harming. I would have last week, except there was quite a lot of stuff going on in my home, so it wasn’t really convenient. But i told her I probably will soon, once things settle down a bit. She asked me was there anything that I needed – meaning dressings and stuff, which I said no I don’t think so. Now that is great support, offering me dressings, that’s the kind of support that you need. She was great, as usual. I see her again in just under 3 weeks.

Apart from that not much to say, my moods have been shit, I’m going to self harm soon. I am appearing “normal” to other people, they have no idea that I am not feeling too good, which actually makes me feel good, that they don’t know.